We are planning on having a great weekend. In fact, we are really hoping that this is the weekend we get knocked up!
After I get off of work today, QW is going to pick me up and we are heading over to Donor’s house for our third insemination of this cycle.
The first time we tried to conceive, I felt like a nervous wreck the whole time. I didn’t want to mess anything up. I wanted to make sure that QW was comfortable and happy (which I still do of course). I couldn’t wait to take for my love to take a home pregnancy test, even though I knew it was too soon and I knew it would more than likely be negative because of that.
This time, everything feels different. I am not a huge ball of nerves. I feel much cooler about everything. Don’t get me wrong, I am still excited as hell, but this time I don’t feel crazy. I guess that we should look at our first go-round not as a failure to conceive, but as a practice run to attempt to conceive with the least amount of stress and anxiety as possible. I saw that in the first cycle I didn’t mess anything up. I didn’t drop the sample, I didn’t hurt QW while doing the insemination, and I didn’t do anything that could hinder her from becoming pregnant. I now know that I know what I am doing (for the most part) and I am becoming a pro at my job!
This time around I feel confident. Confident that we will comfortably inseminate. Confident that the “waiting period” will be stress free. Confident I won’t bug my honey bunny every three seconds asking her, “so, do you feel pregnant?!?!?” I am confident that we will conceive. It may not be this cycle, although I sure as heck am hoping so, but it will be soon.
I think the greatest thing about this is that we have such an awesome relationship. We absolutely trust each other. And man, do I love my QueerWife. She’s the bees knees. She’s going to make such a rad mommy.
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